This was a big step for me, I was a stay at home mom trying to fill my days with writing, coupons, crocheting and then a dangerous rode to playing minecraft becoming wildly addicted. I was bored and need something to fill the extra time I didn't know what to do with. I decided to apply for a job in the criminal justice field (remember...CJ Major).
For sure I would be a solid candidate. Since my background is close to spotless; no drinking, no drugs and no type of gang affiliation ever in my life. I was gold to them! I had excelled in every possible step they had given me. Then God walked on to the scene and for the door that was so far open it was off the hinges was now suddenly closed and I was confused. At the same time I applied for the CJ position, there was a teaching job I felt I was being led to, so I applied. I left in God's hands saying I applied for both we will see what you want me to do. Let's get one thing straight really quick, for those who know me, know yes I have a lot of patience until it comes to homework with the kids. I was not teacher material, but I followed my spirit applied for the job and God closed the door. Apparently I was not doing what I was suppose to be doing. I returned to my knees in longer prayer and even fasting I asked God what was the deal and what did he want form me? Why was he closing so many doors and why was he giving me this urge to teach?
Then one night really late or really early 3 a.m. God spoke to me and for a week he spoke to me, waking me up at 3 a.m. at the end of that week I knew why I had such a hold on teaching. I was not meant to teach at a school surrounded by other peoples children but in my home surrounded by my own children. Before you knew it my misdirection became so focused and so intent. I spent the whole summer preparing myself and my home for what was about to happen. I can say honestly I thought I was prepared. Oh boy was I so very wrong!
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