This is not the beginning!

I have had a really hard time transitioning from working class women to stay at home mom. Mind you it was not my choice, I was inflicted into this decision. Quite a tale maybe I might tell you someday. Or not!

I am truly quite over it because now here swimming in the deep end I am truly happy with who I am and what task I have placed in front of me.

Like I said this is not the beginning. My beginning was much different then now. I was angry, hurting, yelling, screaming, possibly making everyone around me very miserable. You see the saying is not just a saying, Happy wife happy life, very true statement! I was not happy my life was not going in the direction I had worked so hard for it to go.

You see, being a young mom of 7 kids holding a full time job and going to school to build a career was all I wanted, well maybe more kids, but pretty much on track. I was graduating soon going to jump into my dreams when everything came crashing down. I was pushed right into a position of being a stay at home mom who really couldn't do much physically.

That was probably the hardest part I was actually available to spend time with my kids but physical incapable, that truth broke me so many times. Yet no matter how hard that was I am so thankful for it. You see God used this traumatic time in my life to show me what I was really missing out on. Of course I didn't see it at the time but boy did I catch on later.

Anyway, days went by, weeks, months and then years. Two to be exact, two years and seven months to be even more exact. I was on the edge, ready to jump. That's when my life changed so dramatically. God relieved me of all the problems in my life; mentally, physically and most of all emotionally. I was different, I was new. I thank God everyday for that and for the strength he gives me everyday to be more new.

Now I am a stay at home mom, who has her degree in criminal justice.....wowzers. I know what you are saying  all that work and all that time and all that money. Who knows where my future lies, God may one day give me the opportunity where such a degree comes in handy. All I know is right now God has me right where he wants me. Teaching my children and being a wife to the most amazing husband. He had this set up for me all along I chose not to listen. Well that's the past because I am all ears now! I'm listening!!